Is desserts. I have to look at today as a day filled with desserts, just not the edible kind. I had a great 2 day visit with my parents, I have a loving husband who works hard to support our family and I have my little blue eyed man who makes me laugh, cry and is the sweetest treat in my life. And today his big blue eyes looked into mine as I was buckling him into his carseat after school and said "Mommy you forgot my dezurg in my lunch box". I guess in his new classroom all the cool kids have a dezurg of chocolate in their lunch boxes and lil' man just wants to fit in! Lucky for him I was able to hook him up with a Dove Chocolate heart I had hidden away to make Peanut Butter Loves (Kisses/Blossoms) cookies.
Jonner is adjusting to his new classroom wonderfully. He's made several new friends and he and another little boy have been inseperatable since Jonner's 1st day. Some of his bad behaviors have stuck with him, but it's still early and I'm hopeful that with him being away from the children in his old class he'll be back to himself.
Yesterday Eric gave me some *adoption* news that hurt my feelings and to be honest made me a little bit angry. There is a girl that works in his building and it was brought to our attention several months ago that she was pregnant and wanted to let us adopt her child. She approached someone with concerns of working and seeing Eric and feeling uncomfortable. I understood the concerns and left it at that. At Christmas we found out that she was moving into base houseing and we assumed she had decided to keep her baby. She herself told me when she was due, and spoke generally about the pregnancy. I guess my assumption was wrong. Eric offered to give her our bassenett and she told him she was placing the baby for adoption but would ask if "they" wanted it. When he told me I felt like it was a slap in the face. Honestly my feelings initially were anger; "if we're not good enough to parent your baby maybe our bassenett isn't good enough either", then the hurt set in. The anger is now gone but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't hurt. I wasn't happy when I thought she was going to parent her child, but I wished her well. A lot of single parents raise children and do it well. I knew it would be difficult for her but I'm sure she could have done it. Now I'm just sad. Sad that our wait continues. I'm sure that the family she's chosen wants this baby as much as we do.
Meanwhile I've asked Eric to approach her and ask if she'd reconsider placing her child with us and explaining to her that he'll be deploying and when he returns moving to a new office. I know placing her child is not a small, easy decission and I would love to have her reconsider us now that she won't be seeing Eric on a day to day basis. All we can do is ask.
One of my girlfriends once told me "one of the greatest gifts you can give your child is a sibling". I pray that sometime soon we can give Jonner and a new little someone the wonderful gift of each other.
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